In six days, it will be one year since my mother transitioned on and left this world. In many ways, it feels like it was a life time ago that she and I had our last conversation, and in other ways, I am still in disbelief that she is really gone.
I have experienced other, very close and loved family members and friends passing on. It is painful, sad, and difficult. Losing my Mother has been different, much more intense, profound, and heartbreaking.
There is a connection to our mother that is like no other connection. We begin with the super cool fact that your mother carried the egg cells which may one day be fertilized and grow into her own grandchild. I know!! A bit of a brain twister! Every woman is born with all her eggs already inside her ovaries. You can have as many as seven million eggs in your ovaries at birth and those eggs will be released every menstrual cycle throughout your (fertile) lifetime. What this means is because you are born with all of your eggs, your eggs were once inside of your mother when you were a fetus in her womb.
If we approach this from an energetic perspective, the connection can be realized as extremely impactful. As an egg cell, we were already connected to our mother through our grandmother. We experience our mothers life with her as an egg in her ovaries. There is a connection to our mother like no other relationship. It is a scientific fact. As we know through thermodynamics, energy cannot be created nor destroyed. It simply changes states. The total amount of energy in an isolated system does not, cannot, change. And thanks to Einstein, we also know that matter and energy are two rungs on the same ladder. Full Article here: https://futurism.com/the-physics-of-death
We have been through a lot with our mother before we are even born! Is it any wonder that we have such a deep bond with her? Whether the relationship is beautiful, loving, difficult or strained, there is a connectedness like no other. A strand that connects us long after the umbilical cord has been cut, the one that began before the umbilical cord was needed or formed.
Emotionally, It takes effort for me to be comforted by the understanding that my mothers energy is all around me. I want to talk with her, to text her about the silly thing that one of her grand dogs did today or share our heart for my daughter/her granddaughter. I sense when she is close because my heart hurts and I cry; it is the heart connection-my heart feels her nearby and there is a pull on my heart strings. The memories, photos, and spending time with my family help to ease the pain of Mom not sitting next to me- in the flesh. Her energy, love, and presence in my life in her spirit form remind me that we are all a part of everything around us. We will one day-as Mom is now, be in every whisper of the wind, every blade of grass, and every star in the sky. It reminds me that my connection to her and hers to me is eternal and unbreakable. It is forever.